sleepy turtle

time n me..............

2010-08-03T21:41:00.000-07:00

i thought my blog no one will visit at all.

eh.....still got!

wonderful n thanks!

looking at the old posted blog's date,

is been a year i didn't post any news about me,

it show that i really don't know what have i doing the past whole year.

very bad n sad,rite?

anyway i still arive in this world.

just lost for a moment,

just take time to find myself,

just take time to find myway.

now........

i also not yet ready for all,

but........

better then before,

at least...........

i know to write down some things here.

to tell everyone that care for me,

i still fine,

no need so worry about me,

it show again,

time always is the good medicine for recovering.

i will b back again to tell everybody,

i am better,

i will,

be confidence for me,

c u guys soon,

this will b only hope for me.........

hi n hai.......

2009-06-12T13:31:00.000-07:00

so long didn't show up in my blogger alrdy.

any one miss me?

i don't think so,rite?

nearly i have been so busy n feel very down.

everyday rush for complete a dayly routine.

until i got no feel at all most of the time.

scare to think for the future.

just past a day by day n hope no big thing happen.

don't know what am i doing now.

wish to have a holiday,

which i can carry my bag n go for walk.

try to stay away form what i having now.

can that day can come true to me soon?

let's make a wish for me,please!

2008-10-30T06:17:00.000-07:00

How to help?

Sitting inside the car on the way back home, along the way T keep on driving n talk non stop at the phone,suddenly phone off by itself..........

T: Help me to change my handphone bateries.
C: O.k.

After change the bateries n on the phone.....

C: Eh,why it said need to put in sim card......(T grab away the phone)
T: Why you like that,ask u to do something for me also so difficult.
C: I just change it only as you said.
T: See,all my memories on the phone just now had been delete.
C: I really didn't touch any other button.
T: you always make things worse.
C: i..................(T continue talk to the phone, n just left C sitting quitely until reach home)

2008-10-28T09:05:00.000-07:00

Waiting for you......

the clock on the wall showing the time 5:20.

T: can i come to fecth u at 5:30?
C: i need to check with my head first.
T: i call back u to confirm.

5:25........

T: can u come out wait for me at 5:30?
C: yes.
T: I on the way now.

5:30.......

T: I outside already,why u still not coming out?
C: please wait for me,still got a few customers need to serve.
T: I am rushing the time now,i already told u what.
C: Yes,i know. Will come out soon.
T: ..........(phone hung up)

5:39.......

C try her best n run out to meet T.But when she reach outside, she didn't see any body there.
She call his phone,no body answer.She then walk back to the work place.

K: hey,what happen u back again?
C: T went away already.
K: Why he went away so fast?Can he wait for u a while?
C: .........(just laugh at her collage,n don't know how to answer.)

6:00......

Fil: I 'am out waitting u,T ask me to send u back first.
C: o.k.

9:45....

T: Why u still not sleep yet?sleep early,i need to go out meet customer again.
C: O.k..
Watching T went out again,just don't know what else that need to said................

A few days past by.

In the morning.

T: Please make sure u can come out at 6 sharp.
C: ok.

5:30....

T:I still not yet finish my work,can u wait for me there until 7:30?
C: o.k.

7:45...

M: Are T on the way come to fetch you?
C: Yes,may be trafic jam.

8:15...

M: Hey,T still not yet come,lah.
C:Hpoe that he won't break his record.
M: How long is T's record?
C: 3 hour n 50 min.
M:Ha.......

9:00...

M: U better call him,lo.
C: Are u come to fecth me?
T: Yes,still got little bit to chat with the customer.
C: ok.

10:00....
M: We want to go back already,lah.
C: No need to wait for me,u all go back first.

10:20.....

U: T not free to come,he ask me to come fecth u n sent u back.
C: thanks.

3:00a.m....

T: hey,u still not sleep yet,the shirt customer just want to drink only.Didn't talk about the point
project.So sleepy now.Good night!
C: ..............................................................................

“爱？”

2008-07-07T17:24:00.000-07:00

爱的哲学：

一，因爱，而性。
二，因性，而爱。
三，因爱，没性。
四，因性，没爱。
五，因爱，而爱。
六，因性，而性。
七，因爱，乱爱。
八，因爱，乱性。
九，因性，乱爱。
十，因性，乱性。

问世间爱为何物？

可让万物尝尽了悲，欢，离，合。

问世人爱为何物？

真正懂得爱的，有几个呢？

人的一生中，会有多少爱？

无论爱谁，都要先爱自己，

只有懂得爱自己的人，才有资格去爱别人，或被人爱。

"Tomorrow will be a what days?"

2008-07-06T07:15:00.000-07:00

Day past by non stop, and i still waiting,waiting to get some good news....................

i understand i can't be like that waiting,but i promise myself i give myself a due date.

when over the due date,i still can't get any decision from him,then i will be the one make my own decision.

my days is difficult to pass,but his also more suffer then i.

that's y i don't want to add more problem for him.i hope he also will do that to me.

he is difficult to make all the decision now,i understand.

he also had no confidence of what to do now,so do i.

but i got due date for that,i don't want to let all the things get continually worse.

i should made my own decision and don't depend on him.

just let him take his time.................................

"Do u understand the meaning of worry?"

2008-06-20T01:01:00.000-07:00

Wake up late in the morning,not sleeping well last night.

Today need to go fetch L,he will be back afternoon.

N: Where are you now?
L: Still very far from penang.
N: So about what time u will be reach?
L: May be after one.
N: Then i cook lunch for you to eat when you home.
L: Can also.
N: Bye.

(After finish cooking........)
L: What are you doing now?
N: Just finish cook and want to go take bath before go fetching you.
L: No need to hurry,just take your time,some more i still not yet reach Jawi yet.
N: O.k.
L: Let you know when i reach the bridge.
N: O.k.

(Half way driving to the bus terminal.......)
L: Where are you now?
N: Just leaving the house.
L: I reach the bus terminal already.
N: Where to pick you up?
L: At the front gate.
N: O.k.

(One more turning,will reach there..........)
L: Hey,where are you already?
N: One more turning will reach there.
L: Why took you so long!
N: I drive slowly.
L: So short distance you also need to take so long!
N: I use those way that no need to past so much traffic light.
L: No,need what!
N: Can i talk to u later,i am driving now.
L: ........................

(Reach the bus terminal................)
L: Where you drive to,ha!
N: I take the wrong way.
L: So short distance,you also can make mistake and take the wrong way.
N:..........................
L: Some more take phone and always didn't listen to the call.
N:..........................
L: Always like that!
N:.........................
L: Got phone must be more responsible to it,lah.
N:.........................
L: And please don't put your phone on silence,then didn't listen it when people call you.
N:........................
L: You always put your phone up stair and you go down stair doing your work.If not,you put it in room and you in another room.
N:..........................
L: DO you understand what the feeling of people that call you?
N:.........................
L: May be you will think that people call you is not important!
N:.........................
L: Please take time to think about it.
N:..........................
L: Do you know every time i out station,I will be worry?
N:.........................
L: You just thought that is small problem to let some body that care you worry.
N:.........................
L: Where you all Young didn't use the brain to think,ha!
N:.........................
L: Every time let the old people worry about you.
N:.........................
L: Last night also,just sms me u home only.
N: I very sleepy and headache.
L: I ask you to call me when the time you want to leave,what?
N: I want to call you and you call back me already.
L: That time you said you already reach the junction.I told you the give me a call when you want to leave,ma.
N: ...........................
L: I know you bring up in a family that not so caring about you,but you now are growing older,you need to think about the people that care about you.
N:............................
L: I not means to always want you to report to me all the time.But at lease you reply all the sms i give you what.
N:...........................
L: You always like to just look at the sms and not try to reply.Don't you know people that sms you sure want some reply form you.If not ,what for they sms you,money too much,r?
N:..........................
L: Last night,i received your sms and i call you,you also didn't answer the call.Let me so worry,until i call the house and wake dad up to comfirm that you already at home.
N: I really very tired and fall asleep.
L: That's why i thought you not to put your phone on silent.
N:........................
L: You all always make me worry.When the time i angry,then said me showing temper.
N: Who else make you angry?
L: Who else,my cousin,again,lo.Give me shit things again when the time i reach bus terminal.
N:........................... (O,that's why you so angry and in bad mood.)

"Which to choose?"

2008-06-17T01:40:00.000-07:00

Actually,what is the purpose of working?

F: Work can be for money,and also work for interest.
S: So which should i choose?
F: If u no need to work,still got money to spent,then work for interest.
S: If work for money and i work until very unhappy,is that worth it?
F: Can't said like that,if you work so hard and no earning money,you are doing charity.
S: So is it i need to find a job that i got interest and can earn money?
F: No such a job that can fulfil yr 2 wish,please be reality.
S: But i really don't want loose my interest for just work to get money.
F: Then you need to choose to be born in rich family,but sadly you born in the opposite.
S: I don't know,if you ask me to work unhappily,that job will make me crazy faster.
F: If you no money,you will be even quick went crazy.
S: I just want to work in the field that i strong with.
F: If you found out what you strong with and really can continue with it,i got nothing to said.
S: I will,i will work hard for it,i don't want to be nothing along and until the end of my life.
F: I didn't ask you to decide what you want to do immediately,just think it properly.
S: Thanks.

"very busy for finding a new job"

2008-06-12T16:29:00.000-07:00

This few days so many things happen and need to settle.One of it is my grandma case.

Admit in hospital at Tuesday and discharge at Wednesday.Looking at her suffer from sick make me sad.

At so old age and not in a healthy condition is a sad case.Plus all the children not so focus on is really a sad thing.

Looking at her,i really hope that i no need to live until so old and in not a healthy position.Old people will said if u got children,they will take care of you when you old.But now a day,how many children will do that?Only 1 child will do that out of 10 families.

I'm not saying not to give birth,just don't put so much hope on the children.Just look at my grandma,in her old age and when the time she is sick,all her children can't take care of her and just look at her in suffer.

Every celebrations of mother day and father day,i will feel bad.I can't bring my parents go for a good meal and buy them some present because i can't afford.what i can do is just buy some things back and cook a simple dish for them.that's make me feel sad.Why when small,parent can take care of us as so many of us and when their old age,we can't take care them nicely.

I not means that need to buy them expensive things,but at least can bring them to have a nice meal and give them some money to buy their things they like.Feel so bad,so bad.

"Is that friends for?"

2008-06-03T16:28:00.000-07:00

T: All the friends only know take care of they own thing only.
C: If there didn't take care of them self first,would u always take care them?
T: No,but at least let people know what r they doing or busy for,ma!
C: They may be just busy or doing some thing important.
T: Busy until can't answer call,if that people dying,no need to save,lo!
C: If that person dying,is it better he/she call 999,better then call friend?
T: Especially those just got boy friend or girl friend,more worse!
C: They sure will be more concentrate on their partner,what.
T: Got couple,not need friends already,lah!
C: Yes,u also need.But when the started time in love,sure they will be more close,what!
some more for those who just first time fall in love,u also been thru what.
T: U can see i not like that,what!
C: Every one not the same,lah.Don't you put all of them as you.
T: Why they take it so important then rather friends?
C: Because couple is to live together forever,and friends not most of the time need to be gather.
T: But you also need friends,what!
C: Yes,every one need friends.but not to depend on them so much.
T: Then what friends for when u need their help and they can offer you?
C: For u i don't know?For my self,i would choose to be the one who offer rather then receive.
T: You think you r GOD,r? Just offer and don't receive help.
C: No,I do receive help form friends,but if i can offer help to them when they need,i will be more
happy.
T: That's why all your friends like to make use of you.
C: They can think what ever they like or taking advantage form me.The things is i am happy to
help them.
T: Don't you see,all your friends always want you to help them more then they help you.
C: Yes,i know.But i don't think that's is a problem.i willing to help them and not by force.
T: When the time u need help,do they help u?
C: Not most of they will.
T: So,what for u help them!
C: I just do whatever i can do.For if i in their mind,when they need help,i will be happy.
T: Wake up! Don't do all stupid things!
C: Yes,you can see me as a stupid person,lo.But i will still be like that no matter how you don't
like me to be.
T: May be you not yet meet the one who hurt you deeply,lo.
C: No,you are wrong.I had been meet.It hurt until i cry for it,angry for it and sad for very long.
Until i got loose hope for all friends.
T: Then why u still do stupid things for them now?
C: Because i change my thinking at friends.Don't always think at the sad case,and you will meet
a good one in future.
T: When that day will be?1 year,2 year or more then that?
C: I don't know.But i believe it sure let me found one days.
T: then you keep dreaming,lah!
C: If like what you think,isn't that be so sad of you?
T: No,i just be more realistic.
C: But you not happy,you will always feel sad.don't you think,that will be not word it.
T: No!
C: What ever you like.i won't make you as me,and i hope you can also don't make me as you.
o.k?
T: Just take care of your self,don't let me worry,lah.
C: Don't worry,i will always be the lucky one,Yeah!

"what is the meaning of a real friend?"

2008-06-01T16:07:00.000-07:00

T: All friends r selfish.
C: Not al,lah.
T: Who say?I have seen so many of them the same.
C: Will got some is exceptable.
T: No and non.
C: Got.
T: Please wake up,in the real world,non of one is yr real friend!
C: Is just you not yet meet them.
T: I have beem so many sad case already,i don't really belive in that.
C: You can make your friend become what you wish for every time.
T: I didn't.But They will always put them self first.
C: They have thier own life style,o.k?
T: No,I also have my own life,but when ever they need help from me,i will think for them first.
C: Yes, but you r not them,may be that moment u need help,they got other thing to be done,leh.
T: They should let me know instead of not answering all my call.
C: Yes,you r correct.But may be they got their problem that need to do n can't answer yr call.
T: Then why they need phone for.
C: Sometime friend is always beside u,or when u need them,they will not always there.
T: Then what is friends for?all friend just know to take avantage form u only,lah.
C: Yes,but i don't think that's not good for me.
T: Then u be the stupid to do all for that.
C: No,i am happy because i feel that i still have some use to them.
T: That's why u always use by yr friends,lo.
C: I don't think that is a problem to me.
T: Don't u feel that is not fair to you?
C: No,i just did what i am happy for.
T: But end up they just always didn't pay back any thing to u.
C: Why i need them pay back?The moment i offer help,i will not hope for pay back.
T: Yes,but when u need help,they didn't turn up.
C: When that moment if they give help,i will be very happy.But they done,it means i need to settle by myself what.Why always need to depent on them?
T: That's why i said they are all selfish.
C: It depent on how u accept it.May be is the way you choose friends is not correct.
T: Then you means you very good in choosing friend,right?
C: No, i just feel that i am lucky to have all my friends.
T: Your friends also using you only what.
C: We are using each other.
T: But they using you more.
C: They did what they want and i did what i can and i happy for that.
T: Why u can do all those thing,ha?
C: That's me.

"busy month"

2008-05-20T19:26:00.000-07:00

this month seem to b very busy for me.

need to move office,need to attend friend's wedding,need to visit friend that just give birth.

so many things group together n need to settle in this month....

really so tired,no mood n no form to eat now.

some time just wonder "Y DO HUMAN NEED TO EAT?"

keep asking my self,if i no need to eat,it is will b more easy?

but when not the correct time to eat,i eat a lot,sometime i even eat non stop.

i think i want to went crazy alrdy................................

2008-05-04T07:58:00.000-07:00

sorry for"left manner"

2008-04-30T08:11:00.000-07:00

very sorry for left manner.

really no form n mood to write any things right now.

please give me some time,i will b back,back to blogging again.

"Right manner"

2008-04-03T05:06:00.000-07:00

In a hot afternoon.

W: What a hot day?
D: Yes.
A: Why u come here alone?
U: Ya,lo.Where is yr husband?
W: He is busy.
U: What is he busy about now?What kind of business he involce now?
W: Any job that can earn money,he will do.
A: o.k.That's good.
U: but he should come here to pray yr grandfather what?
A: Yes.Didn't c him come to pray before n after married?
W: He can't attend all this kind of function.
D: Yes,he told me before.
U: Oh,like that.
A: Then he side,he got went to pray?
W: No for the place like this.
U: How about u?Have u go pray that side?
W: Got.
D: She should be go there to pray as his wife.
W: but some time will feel that no fair to my side.
D: If he really can't make it,why want to force him.
W: But at lease he got put some effort to drive me here.
D: May be he got other urgent things that need him more.
W: Take some time out also can't meh?
D: As a wife,don't u stand more on yr husband situation n think of it.
W: Yes i know,but just....
U: No need to talk so much if can't change the situation.
W: .....................

(After lunch,went back office,look at husband still sit infront of computer.)

W: Have u take yr lunch?
H: Just take a bit.
W: Why didn't ask me to pack for u?
H: Don't want to disturb yr time sharing with yr family.
W: ................
H: Why they didn't droup u home?
W: U ask me to back office.
H: O.k. sit so long in office alone.
W:........(if u went,u not need to wait here,but u can't.I understand)
H: Let's go home!
W:........(Actually r u feel bad that can't attend all this kind of function....)
H: Why spend so long there?
W: No,we spend more time at lunch.
H: Very hungry alrdy...
W: ..................

A long the way home,he didn't say a word..........

(to be continue.........)

"Right manner or Left manner?"

2008-03-30T20:18:00.000-07:00

In a lovely morning.

W: Afterward need to go pray my grandfather!
H: O.K.Just check with yr dad,when he can come to fecth u.
W: O.k.
H: Still not yet reply?
W: Yes,maybe they still busy.
H: But still need to reply,what.
W: i sms them again.
H: Why not u call them.
W: they busy how answer call?
H:Aswer a call also dificurt,meh?
W: Afterward when they free,they will call back me.
H: Don't understand u all,just answer phone seem to like do any big job!
W: o.k.i just call.
H: Remember ask yr father to come fecth u at office.
W: Hello.dad.What time u come to fecth me?
D: about 11:00.but can u ask yr husband to droup u at the place that easy for us to fecth u?
W: o.k.i check with him.
W:Can u droup me at the place that easy for my dad to fecth me there?
H: Why they can't just come office?
W: They didn't pass here.
H: Ask them just turn over here,lah.
W: afterward u got appointment is it?
H: No,I'm free.
W: then why can't u droup me there?
H: they already drive along the way.just turn over here also so dificurt?
W: I accept u can't go those place,but to show u got some respect,can't u just droup me there?
H: why u always want to made thing difficurt!
W: Why i can do all for yrs family,but u can't?
H: It is because i not like yr sister's boyfriend,any thing will follow yr sister n yr family wish.
W: i didn't ask u to be like that.
H: that why yr family side don't like me.i know but i choose to b myself.
W: i didn'i want u to do all what they want,just want u to be more friendly to my family.
H: I only do what i should do,i don't care they like me or not.
W: o.k.o.k!

(to be continue............................)

Is it just like wheather?...........

2008-03-18T02:28:00.000-07:00

The clock showing 5:30p.m.

T n c is on their way home.....

T: Need to call to the restaurant to book table first.
C: Why? We can go there early,what?
T: U got the phone no.?
C: No.
T: Let me call A.She sure have.
C:.................
T:Better not.
C: No need to call,we just go there early.
T: Call yr friend S,she will got the no.
C: No answer the phone,if not mistaken,she either playing majong or she sleep?
T: Want to call A,r?
C:........
T: U call H n c?She sure got.
C: She working now.
T: What kind of people u all!
C: She working n will not answer the phone.
T: Why business are u all work at! listern to phone also can't not!
C:................

(C calling her friend while T keep shouting)
C:Hello,do u have that restaurant phone no.?
H: yes.64xxxxxx.
C: thanks!
T: C i told u she sure got.
C:..............

(T calling to the restaurant)
T: Can u reserve 1 table for me?
R: Sir,u need to come here,we have no reservation.
T: o.k.we will go there early.
C:............

(T n C go to buy cake.)

T: What u want to eat b4 go to dinner later?
C: ...........
T: We go eat KFC.
C: Don't want.......
T: C! Show temper again!
C:............

(go in the bakery choose cake)
T: C! I told u alrdy.the cake here where got so cheap as u say?some more look no good!
C:.......
T: How to buy the cake like that!
C: So how?
T: Don't want buy,lah.Tell u alrdy what!

(go to hawker stall)

T: Why u like that! just ask u to call yr friend so difficult,r?
C:...........
T: Get temper so fast!
C:.........
T: U know a not?I don't understand why lately yr mood can change so fast!
C: ........
T: What u want?
C:...... fried rice.

(T went to order)

T: What happen to u?Why yr mood change so fast?
C:........
T: O.k.Just eat.

In C's mind:
who is the 1 actually mood change fast?
why want her to call her friend n not his friend?
why want to blame those people who can't listern the phone while working?
Is it her self bad temper?
why always because of a little thing,make a big problem in between?

need to tell u?

2008-03-17T02:48:00.001-07:00

y n k is shopping in the mall.suddenly.........

p: Eh,that is k right?(push the troley there)
y: Er....(don't go there,please)
p: Hi,so free,no need to work,r?come to shopping?
y: ........
p: What r u want to buy?
k: Just shampoo.
y: I want to go find soap,let's go p!
p: O.k.
y: Hu..
p: Is that his wife?
y: No.
p:Opp!.....
y: That's y i want to out of that place faster,n u go talk to him.
p: How i know?
y: Don't try to think on the bad side.just forget it.

(a few days past)

f: did'u forgot to tell me some thing?
y: what?
f: some things u need to tell me?
y: what? i really got no idea.
f: what u c at the mall?
y: o..yes.i c k and another woman.
f: why u don't tell me?
y: i forget.
f:u sure u forget?
y: i want find some suaitable time to tell u.
f: why can u just tell me!
y: i just on the way thinking is it need to tell u.
f: u should tell me when u c me!
y:i...
f:i don't know why u need to keep it,so simple, just tell me!
y:i thought that's not very....
f:u should let me know!
y:......
f:u know k phone me n ask me"yr wife didn't tell u any things?"
y:.....
f:u know or not?i feel so stupid at that moment?
y:...
f:u know that is my friend,what!can't u tell me!
y:....
f:my friend ask me n i know not thing!
y:....
f:that's u,very things keep!
y:....
f: r u get arward of keep all the things!
y:...
f:people sure laugh at me coz my wife didn't tell me.
y:...
f:i felt very stupid!do u know?
y:.........

In y mind,she had already feel,this will happen.Just she can't accept that it happen so fast,so fast until she not even get ready for it.Just some questions still stuck in her mind until now.

"Is that so important that i didn't tell u?"

"Is that yr friend problem is important then our relationship?"

"Is that the stupid feel of u more important that yr wife feel?"

"Why yr friend problem u put it in our n make it become our problem?"

"Why u want to shout at me because of it,don't u know u hurting me?"

"Can u think for me?"

"Y u so slow?"

2008-03-10T00:58:00.000-07:00

"Y u so slow?"

"Can't u b faster?"

"Wait for u waste time only."

Is it all those sentences so familiar?Have u spoke before?Or have u heared from yr close friend,relative, or even yr love one said?What will the place is?Who is take part?When the science be?
For me, all these sentences are shout to 2 kind of people.First one,the old people;second, the small children.Why?How?.........
x x x x x
(son and father.)
A: "Y r u so slow?"
B: "I can't see the road clearly."
A: "Every time need to wait for u!"
B: "If u rushing for time,u just leave me."
A: "U know i rushing time,still talk so much n move so slow."
B:(Don't u remember the time,i always wait for u when u still a little boy?)
x x x x x
(father with son.)
A:"Can u b faster!"
C:"I already walk very fast."
A:"Every time because of waiting u,I'm late."
C:"Then i run,o.k?"
A:"Run?Fall down,bleeding n cry, waste more my time."
C:(U wake up late n wake me late,now u blame me some more,not fair.)
x x x x x
How u think about these 2 conversation?Whose is the person who actually need to be responsible?A? B? or C?Answer: A,right?
Old people n small child actually are same.Why i say like that?

Have u notice?when people get old,they will think, act, eat n even behave like a child. They will think that them self are useless to u,because u no need them as when u r small. Their reaction is slow, because of brain functioning slow.They eat slow,because their teeth are getting less.They will showing temper to u,if u don't agree with them.

Just like a small child.They think of them are useless,because they still need yr help.Their reaction is slow, because of brain functioning slow. They eat slow, because their teeth are less. They will cry,when u stop them doing their favourite thing.

So conclution.Act,think,eat n behave as a child, when the situation is needed.Please also b happy n enjoy the moment with children n olders.

"Important?"

2008-02-21T16:00:00.000-08:00

Morning reach office, X found that beside taking cell phone,all other things forgot to bring.No key for open the office, no bring purse,no i/c,no driving lessen,no note book...............

Call back tell Y to bring for her if he not yet left home.Y promise to bring for her later.....

Since rush out,not yet take breakfast, feel so hungry n X plan to go coffee shop for buy something to eat.Then notice no bring purse where got money? X found 2 red packed in bag.....

Usually X don't open red packed in 15 days of new year,but since there is all the money X have,so she open it n go buy breakfast.

Y promise to bring all the things for X at lunch time.So she wait...............

Lunch hour past, tea-break time also past,only dinner time Y came..........

Y : Very hungry,no have time to take lunch.Have u bought lunch for me?

X : Yes.Have u take my things for me?

Y : Got,but all in car, u go get it yr self, I'm too tired to go bring for u.

X : O.k.

Y : Every thing fine today?

X : Yes.When i want to go buy food,then only i realice that i only got left 2 red packed in my

bag,so i open it to use.

Y : ( Very angry n shout).Why u like that? Tell u alrdy can't not use the money for this 2

red packed.

X : I got no money alrdy,so i use it.

Y : U can borrow from other people what! So many people u can borrow, why u don't borrow?

X : I thought can use it first,so no need to borrow from other people,loh.

Y : O.k.If u said like that i take yr married ring to sell for money n buy another same for u when i got money.loh! Is it the same?

X : Is just red packed n i will put back the same amount money back for u.

Y : U don't understand,is it?the meaning is not same,alrdy.

X : I know i alrdy use it,tom i give back u o.k?

Y : NO point alrdy.

X : .............................

Y : Said like that only u start to cry!I know u 7 years alrdy, every time when i complaine the wrong things that u had made, u sure b like that.

X : .............................

Y : Keep quite only, if any things i said u don't agree! say out!

X : ............................

Y : I know my voice is lound, but every things i said is it wrong?

X : ............................

Y : Did u know every time u like that, i will b more angry n can't concerntrate on doing my work n when driving?

X : ...........................

Y : U said u will change this bad habbit, have u change?I had give u so many years to change, have u improve? No, getting worse!

X : ............................

Y : don't u feel that i had control so much of my voice n no shouting at u so much alrdy?

X : It is bcos the time both of us together getting less n less.......

Y : I need to pay more attention on my job,if not where can get money!

X : Those time u left for us always end with quarel............

Y : Yes, then every time u will keep quite n know cry only,then pretand not thing happen tom morning. Problem not solve yet, just keep delay!

X : ...........................

Y : Did u know? I will became mad every time when u keep quite n cry like that? Can't u change this habbit?

X : ..............................

Y : o.k i keep quite, i got nothing to say any more.

Sending X a way home with no conversation, but only with tear..................

Both couple ending the chinese valentine day with lound voice n tear.

where am i?

2008-02-19T18:21:00.000-08:00

Any body here? I still stuck in the lost world.Urgently need help!

Who can b a candle that try to show me my way? For now,i just need a little light that can let me c myself. I can't c my self now..............

Every night i can't even sleep well, keep awake so often.Until i feel like:

at night - i keep awake suddenly, fall sleep n awake........

day time - i past my time like in dream, don't what had i did n don't remember what i done.......

what am i writing now?...............

Where is the "New Year Feel"???

2008-02-12T22:23:00.000-08:00

How come i didn't feel the new year mood at all?? Am i still alive?
Anyway, I don't like new year!

I very busy at new year,don't know y? I will b more tired compare to normal days.

Sometimes i really can't remember how i past all the time.....................................

Try to enjoy every days, but end up with no feelling at all.

I wonder is it got brain in my head? How come i always feel nothing????

Am i on the way to b crazy? or on the way to..................

can any body tell me, what happen to me?I keep asking my self,i can't find the answer.........

I am lost...........................................

In a world thats no body r there, i can't even find my self there also..................

Some time feel like shut down all the systerm or restart again....

Where is my candle thats show me the ways? The way that i really need to walk.............

I c nothing in here, not even myself..............

I got no idea what i doing, where r me,who r me???????????????

Really tired, very tired, want to rest, but how????????

Been "WASH!!""

2008-01-31T15:45:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, actually time past very fast.Things go fine n smoothly until the clock show 6.....

My boss came back, asking me so much questions.U know lah,my processing always slow,need longer time to output.So with m boss back in tired n bad mood,i get "WASH" badly.
From top to toes, inside also.....

My boss complaine about my slow processing n the uncomplete output.Actually for me is,i didn't have the complete data to input for my processing. I told my boss, but he said that is an excuse, not accepted reason. For what i remember the talk start:

Boss : y i ask u to send me the detail at morning,u delay until i call u at 11a.m. first,then u give me?
Ah 4 : i start at 9, double check all the detail, get the comfirm data, n just want to send, u alrdy called.
Boss : didn't i told u to find it early?
Ah 4 : i did. i keep tell u i have some uncomplete data need to check with u.
Boss : U just ask a few time n stop alrdy, i so busy how i remember to check with u?
Ah 4 : Every time i ask,u said put a side first,let u free then u go tru with me.
Boss : So u need to non stop keep asking me,lah!
Ah 4 : I did, every time end up with complaine me didn't have time for u to relax.
Boss : U know i so busy, my time not fix, so u need to arange yr time to fit me,lah.
Ah 4 : So i didn't always calling u, hope u got more time...
Boss : I need u to call me for checking the time with me, u didn't call. Every me is the 1 who call u.
Ah 4 : How i know what time u free,if i call u in wrong time,u scold me again....
Boss : Don't say that, i always call u back if i free!
Ah 4 : .........................
Boss : u know u only keep look at people bad way,u didn't look at people good place?
Ah 4 :.......................
Boss : keep said my reason is so much, don't u think all the reason i said is correct?
Ah 4 : .......................
Boss : everytime when i correct yr mistake, u sure keep quite or cry only,didn't u feel that is atitude need to change?????
Ah 4 : ......................
Boss : U always complaine about no work to do at office, can't u find by yr own?
Ah 4 : ......................
Boss : U think if i like u sit there wait, the job will come to find me?If like that, why should i keep go meeting people outside?
Ah 4 : ...................
Boss : u think meet them is so easy,r? i like so much,meh? if can,y not i side at office,u go run outside?
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : I know is difficurt for u without car,but u must try to arrange the time yr self with dad.
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : U can go back home early when u work is finish n dad is coming to fetch mum.
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : u b home early,then u got time to do house work,what?Arrange yr time!!!!
Ah 4 : .........................
Boss : I don't want u like mum,always know to complaine n not change,control yr time yr self, b more independent.
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : I alrdy keep try to change my temper, u please change yr atitude!!!
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : Please always report to me what r doing whole days!!
Ah 4 : yes.
Boss : I need to know what r u doing start from tommorow.
Ah 4 : o.k.

what will u do if u at this situation? can give me some comment? or try to fill in the blanks that ah 4 need to say?

tommorow will b better,right?

2008-01-30T16:27:00.000-08:00

Sometime,very excited want to know what will b happen tomorrow;but in another hand,very scare of it.

Is it only me have this kind of thinking, or every human also like that.So i am normal,right?

Every day, i try my best to do all the job in order.Sometime, things went smooth;i past the day just very normal.But sometime,is very terrible;things went wrong all the way.

I always tell myself "tomorrow will b a better day!"is it that I'm trying to lie myself,or give myself a hope?I don't know what is actually i want my life to be?I hope it can go smoothly,but do i will happy. when i own a simple life?

why human can b so giddy?when u own some things already,u still want to change to another?i very confuse,i really don't know the way i walk now is suitable to me or not?

I c all my friends past their time so enjoyable. when i look at my one,is difference.

At my age:
-people will go pub, disco, karaoke, coffee house....but i use to stay at home.
-people like to follow the fashion n keep up dated...but my use to stay at my own style.
-people give birth to new generation so easy...but i still can't take my decision yet.

I know i need to change, i need to follow my own, and not peoples way. i am trying so hard to express my self, but in other hand i care so much about people feel. End up b the only 1 who suffer for my own.

Be more brave, n stand up when i need to say "NO!"I know,i know, but how to do it?
i also very angry of myself,why can't i do it? I know if i continue the way like that,i will be the one who go crazy soon.

Friends beside me give me a lot of support, i know n thanks to them who walk along with me.if didn't have them.u do c me at mental problem center. I feel so lucky to have friends when i need them, but don't know is it all my friends also think like that.

I promise u all. I will try more hard to change my self. Then u all can c a better me at future.......

yesterday + today = tomorrow ???

2008-01-24T16:07:00.000-08:00

What i did yesterday,is it will get feed back on today, or side effect on tomorrows?? Is it yesterday i did a good,means i will get a better today??Answer is: Not really!! But at lease, not too bad..........

Every days i will try my best to do all the things nice.The feed back will sometime b good; sometime no. This is what life is.U won't know what will happen follow by that. So we have to learn from our life. Every experiences is important to our self.

Do u agree? life like a story book to every one. Different person will have different story. Inside sure will include "happy" n "sad". The important thing is enjoy the "happy" n don't forget the "sad".

Y i said like that? Enjoy every "happy" moment, it may b won't have another chance to have it again,so don't waste. Remember all "sad" moment, it will b yr experiences that teach u do not repeat it again.All this,will lit u along the way until the end of yr life.

Accept what can't change, recreate more different goods in yr life. U then can have a interesting "story book". Enjoy b the writer for yr own "story book"........................