tommorow will b better,right?

Sometime,very excited want to know what will b happen tomorrow;but in another hand,very scare of it.

Is it only me have this kind of thinking, or every human also like that.So i am normal,right?

Every day, i try my best to do all the job in order.Sometime, things went smooth;i past the day just very normal.But sometime,is very terrible;things went wrong all the way.

I always tell myself "tomorrow will b a better day!"is it that I'm trying to lie myself,or give myself a hope?I don't know what is actually i want my life to be?I hope it can go smoothly,but do i will happy. when i own a simple life?

why human can b so giddy?when u own some things already,u still want to change to another?i very confuse,i really don't know the way i walk now is suitable to me or not?

I c all my friends past their time so enjoyable. when i look at my one,is difference.

At my age:
-people will go pub, disco, karaoke, coffee house....but i use to stay at home.
-people like to follow the fashion n keep up dated...but my use to stay at my own style.
-people give birth to new generation so easy...but i still can't take my decision yet.

I know i need to change, i need to follow my own, and not peoples way. i am trying so hard to express my self, but in other hand i care so much about people feel. End up b the only 1 who suffer for my own.

Be more brave, n stand up when i need to say "NO!"I know,i know, but how to do it?
i also very angry of myself,why can't i do it? I know if i continue the way like that,i will be the one who go crazy soon.

Friends beside me give me a lot of support, i know n thanks to them who walk along with me.if didn't have them.u do c me at mental problem center. I feel so lucky to have friends when i need them, but don't know is it all my friends also think like that.

I promise u all. I will try more hard to change my self. Then u all can c a better me at future.......