"very busy for finding a new job"

This few days so many things happen and need to settle.One of it is my grandma case.

Admit in hospital at Tuesday and discharge at Wednesday.Looking at her suffer from sick make me sad.

At so old age and not in a healthy condition is a sad case.Plus all the children not so focus on is really a sad thing.

Looking at her,i really hope that i no need to live until so old and in not a healthy position.Old people will said if u got children,they will take care of you when you old.But now a day,how many children will do that?Only 1 child will do that out of 10 families.

I'm not saying not to give birth,just don't put so much hope on the children.Just look at my grandma,in her old age and when the time she is sick,all her children can't take care of her and just look at her in suffer.

Every celebrations of mother day and father day,i will feel bad.I can't bring my parents go for a good meal and buy them some present because i can't afford.what i can do is just buy some things back and cook a simple dish for them.that's make me feel sad.Why when small,parent can take care of us as so many of us and when their old age,we can't take care them nicely.

I not means that need to buy them expensive things,but at least can bring them to have a nice meal and give them some money to buy their things they like.Feel so bad,so bad.