Been "WASH!!""

Yesterday, actually time past very fast.Things go fine n smoothly until the clock show 6.....

My boss came back, asking me so much questions.U know lah,my processing always slow,need longer time to output.So with m boss back in tired n bad mood,i get "WASH" badly.
From top to toes, inside also.....

My boss complaine about my slow processing n the uncomplete output.Actually for me is,i didn't have the complete data to input for my processing. I told my boss, but he said that is an excuse, not accepted reason. For what i remember the talk start:


Boss : y i ask u to send me the detail at morning,u delay until i call u at 11a.m. first,then u give me?
Ah 4 : i start at 9, double check all the detail, get the comfirm data, n just want to send, u alrdy called.
Boss : didn't i told u to find it early?
Ah 4 : i did. i keep tell u i have some uncomplete data need to check with u.
Boss : U just ask a few time n stop alrdy, i so busy how i remember to check with u?
Ah 4 : Every time i ask,u said put a side first,let u free then u go tru with me.
Boss : So u need to non stop keep asking me,lah!
Ah 4 : I did, every time end up with complaine me didn't have time for u to relax.
Boss : U know i so busy, my time not fix, so u need to arange yr time to fit me,lah.
Ah 4 : So i didn't always calling u, hope u got more time...
Boss : I need u to call me for checking the time with me, u didn't call. Every me is the 1 who call u.
Ah 4 : How i know what time u free,if i call u in wrong time,u scold me again....
Boss : Don't say that, i always call u back if i free!
Ah 4 : .........................
Boss : u know u only keep look at people bad way,u didn't look at people good place?
Ah 4 :.......................
Boss : keep said my reason is so much, don't u think all the reason i said is correct?
Ah 4 : .......................
Boss : everytime when i correct yr mistake, u sure keep quite or cry only,didn't u feel that is atitude need to change?????
Ah 4 : ......................
Boss : U always complaine about no work to do at office, can't u find by yr own?
Ah 4 : ......................
Boss : U think if i like u sit there wait, the job will come to find me?If like that, why should i keep go meeting people outside?
Ah 4 : ...................
Boss : u think meet them is so easy,r? i like so much,meh? if can,y not i side at office,u go run outside?
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : I know is difficurt for u without car,but u must try to arrange the time yr self with dad.
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : U can go back home early when u work is finish n dad is coming to fetch mum.
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : u b home early,then u got time to do house work,what?Arrange yr time!!!!
Ah 4 : .........................
Boss : I don't want u like mum,always know to complaine n not change,control yr time yr self, b more independent.
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : I alrdy keep try to change my temper, u please change yr atitude!!!
Ah 4 : ........................
Boss : Please always report to me what r doing whole days!!
Ah 4 : yes.
Boss : I need to know what r u doing start from tommorow.
Ah 4 : o.k.


what will u do if u at this situation? can give me some comment? or try to fill in the blanks that ah 4 need to say?

tommorow will b better,right?

Sometime,very excited want to know what will b happen tomorrow;but in another hand,very scare of it.

Is it only me have this kind of thinking, or every human also like that.So i am normal,right?

Every day, i try my best to do all the job in order.Sometime, things went smooth;i past the day just very normal.But sometime,is very terrible;things went wrong all the way.

I always tell myself "tomorrow will b a better day!"is it that I'm trying to lie myself,or give myself a hope?I don't know what is actually i want my life to be?I hope it can go smoothly,but do i will happy. when i own a simple life?

why human can b so giddy?when u own some things already,u still want to change to another?i very confuse,i really don't know the way i walk now is suitable to me or not?

I c all my friends past their time so enjoyable. when i look at my one,is difference.

At my age:
-people will go pub, disco, karaoke, coffee house....but i use to stay at home.
-people like to follow the fashion n keep up dated...but my use to stay at my own style.
-people give birth to new generation so easy...but i still can't take my decision yet.

I know i need to change, i need to follow my own, and not peoples way. i am trying so hard to express my self, but in other hand i care so much about people feel. End up b the only 1 who suffer for my own.

Be more brave, n stand up when i need to say "NO!"I know,i know, but how to do it?
i also very angry of myself,why can't i do it? I know if i continue the way like that,i will be the one who go crazy soon.

Friends beside me give me a lot of support, i know n thanks to them who walk along with me.if didn't have them.u do c me at mental problem center. I feel so lucky to have friends when i need them, but don't know is it all my friends also think like that.

I promise u all. I will try more hard to change my self. Then u all can c a better me at future.......

yesterday + today = tomorrow ???

What i did yesterday,is it will get feed back on today, or side effect on tomorrows?? Is it yesterday i did a good,means i will get a better today??Answer is: Not really!! But at lease, not too bad..........

Every days i will try my best to do all the things nice.The feed back will sometime b good; sometime no. This is what life is.U won't know what will happen follow by that. So we have to learn from our life. Every experiences is important to our self.

Do u agree? life like a story book to every one. Different person will have different story. Inside sure will include "happy" n "sad". The important thing is enjoy the "happy" n don't forget the "sad".

Y i said like that? Enjoy every "happy" moment, it may b won't have another chance to have it again,so don't waste. Remember all "sad" moment, it will b yr experiences that teach u do not repeat it again.All this,will lit u along the way until the end of yr life.

Accept what can't change, recreate more different goods in yr life. U then can have a interesting "story book". Enjoy b the writer for yr own "story book"........................