"Do u understand the meaning of worry?"

Wake up late in the morning,not sleeping well last night.

Today need to go fetch L,he will be back afternoon.

N: Where are you now?
L: Still very far from penang.
N: So about what time u will be reach?
L: May be after one.
N: Then i cook lunch for you to eat when you home.
L: Can also.
N: Bye.

(After finish cooking........)
L: What are you doing now?
N: Just finish cook and want to go take bath before go fetching you.
L: No need to hurry,just take your time,some more i still not yet reach Jawi yet.
N: O.k.
L: Let you know when i reach the bridge.
N: O.k.

(Half way driving to the bus terminal.......)
L: Where are you now?
N: Just leaving the house.
L: I reach the bus terminal already.
N: Where to pick you up?
L: At the front gate.
N: O.k.

(One more turning,will reach there..........)
L: Hey,where are you already?
N: One more turning will reach there.
L: Why took you so long!
N: I drive slowly.
L: So short distance you also need to take so long!
N: I use those way that no need to past so much traffic light.
L: No,need what!
N: Can i talk to u later,i am driving now.
L: ........................

(Reach the bus terminal................)
L: Where you drive to,ha!
N: I take the wrong way.
L: So short distance,you also can make mistake and take the wrong way.
N:..........................
L: Some more take phone and always didn't listen to the call.
N:..........................
L: Always like that!
N:.........................
L: Got phone must be more responsible to it,lah.
N:.........................
L: And please don't put your phone on silence,then didn't listen it when people call you.
N:........................
L: You always put your phone up stair and you go down stair doing your work.If not,you put it in room and you in another room.
N:..........................
L: DO you understand what the feeling of people that call you?
N:.........................
L: May be you will think that people call you is not important!
N:.........................
L: Please take time to think about it.
N:..........................
L: Do you know every time i out station,I will be worry?
N:.........................
L: You just thought that is small problem to let some body that care you worry.
N:.........................
L: Where you all Young didn't use the brain to think,ha!
N:.........................
L: Every time let the old people worry about you.
N:.........................
L: Last night also,just sms me u home only.
N: I very sleepy and headache.
L: I ask you to call me when the time you want to leave,what?
N: I want to call you and you call back me already.
L: That time you said you already reach the junction.I told you the give me a call when you want to leave,ma.
N: ...........................
L: I know you bring up in a family that not so caring about you,but you now are growing older,you need to think about the people that care about you.
N:............................
L: I not means to always want you to report to me all the time.But at lease you reply all the sms i give you what.
N:...........................
L: You always like to just look at the sms and not try to reply.Don't you know people that sms you sure want some reply form you.If not ,what for they sms you,money too much,r?
N:..........................
L: Last night,i received your sms and i call you,you also didn't answer the call.Let me so worry,until i call the house and wake dad up to comfirm that you already at home.
N: I really very tired and fall asleep.
L: That's why i thought you not to put your phone on silent.
N:........................
L: You all always make me worry.When the time i angry,then said me showing temper.
N: Who else make you angry?
L: Who else,my cousin,again,lo.Give me shit things again when the time i reach bus terminal.
N:........................... (O,that's why you so angry and in bad mood.)

"Which to choose?"

Actually,what is the purpose of working?

F: Work can be for money,and also work for interest.
S: So which should i choose?
F: If u no need to work,still got money to spent,then work for interest.
S: If work for money and i work until very unhappy,is that worth it?
F: Can't said like that,if you work so hard and no earning money,you are doing charity.
S: So is it i need to find a job that i got interest and can earn money?
F: No such a job that can fulfil yr 2 wish,please be reality.
S: But i really don't want loose my interest for just work to get money.
F: Then you need to choose to be born in rich family,but sadly you born in the opposite.
S: I don't know,if you ask me to work unhappily,that job will make me crazy faster.
F: If you no money,you will be even quick went crazy.
S: I just want to work in the field that i strong with.
F: If you found out what you strong with and really can continue with it,i got nothing to said.
S: I will,i will work hard for it,i don't want to be nothing along and until the end of my life.
F: I didn't ask you to decide what you want to do immediately,just think it properly.
S: Thanks.

"very busy for finding a new job"

This few days so many things happen and need to settle.One of it is my grandma case.

Admit in hospital at Tuesday and discharge at Wednesday.Looking at her suffer from sick make me sad.

At so old age and not in a healthy condition is a sad case.Plus all the children not so focus on is really a sad thing.

Looking at her,i really hope that i no need to live until so old and in not a healthy position.Old people will said if u got children,they will take care of you when you old.But now a day,how many children will do that?Only 1 child will do that out of 10 families.

I'm not saying not to give birth,just don't put so much hope on the children.Just look at my grandma,in her old age and when the time she is sick,all her children can't take care of her and just look at her in suffer.

Every celebrations of mother day and father day,i will feel bad.I can't bring my parents go for a good meal and buy them some present because i can't afford.what i can do is just buy some things back and cook a simple dish for them.that's make me feel sad.Why when small,parent can take care of us as so many of us and when their old age,we can't take care them nicely.

I not means that need to buy them expensive things,but at least can bring them to have a nice meal and give them some money to buy their things they like.Feel so bad,so bad.

"Is that friends for?"

T: All the friends only know take care of they own thing only.
C: If there didn't take care of them self first,would u always take care them?
T: No,but at least let people know what r they doing or busy for,ma!
C: They may be just busy or doing some thing important.
T: Busy until can't answer call,if that people dying,no need to save,lo!
C: If that person dying,is it better he/she call 999,better then call friend?
T: Especially those just got boy friend or girl friend,more worse!
C: They sure will be more concentrate on their partner,what.
T: Got couple,not need friends already,lah!
C: Yes,u also need.But when the started time in love,sure they will be more close,what!
some more for those who just first time fall in love,u also been thru what.
T: U can see i not like that,what!
C: Every one not the same,lah.Don't you put all of them as you.
T: Why they take it so important then rather friends?
C: Because couple is to live together forever,and friends not most of the time need to be gather.
T: But you also need friends,what!
C: Yes,every one need friends.but not to depend on them so much.
T: Then what friends for when u need their help and they can offer you?
C: For u i don't know?For my self,i would choose to be the one who offer rather then receive.
T: You think you r GOD,r? Just offer and don't receive help.
C: No,I do receive help form friends,but if i can offer help to them when they need,i will be more
happy.
T: That's why all your friends like to make use of you.
C: They can think what ever they like or taking advantage form me.The things is i am happy to
help them.
T: Don't you see,all your friends always want you to help them more then they help you.
C: Yes,i know.But i don't think that's is a problem.i willing to help them and not by force.
T: When the time u need help,do they help u?
C: Not most of they will.
T: So,what for u help them!
C: I just do whatever i can do.For if i in their mind,when they need help,i will be happy.
T: Wake up! Don't do all stupid things!
C: Yes,you can see me as a stupid person,lo.But i will still be like that no matter how you don't
like me to be.
T: May be you not yet meet the one who hurt you deeply,lo.
C: No,you are wrong.I had been meet.It hurt until i cry for it,angry for it and sad for very long.
Until i got loose hope for all friends.
T: Then why u still do stupid things for them now?
C: Because i change my thinking at friends.Don't always think at the sad case,and you will meet
a good one in future.
T: When that day will be?1 year,2 year or more then that?
C: I don't know.But i believe it sure let me found one days.
T: then you keep dreaming,lah!
C: If like what you think,isn't that be so sad of you?
T: No,i just be more realistic.
C: But you not happy,you will always feel sad.don't you think,that will be not word it.
T: No!
C: What ever you like.i won't make you as me,and i hope you can also don't make me as you.
o.k?
T: Just take care of your self,don't let me worry,lah.
C: Don't worry,i will always be the lucky one,Yeah!

"what is the meaning of a real friend?"

T: All friends r selfish.
C: Not al,lah.
T: Who say?I have seen so many of them the same.
C: Will got some is exceptable.
T: No and non.
C: Got.
T: Please wake up,in the real world,non of one is yr real friend!
C: Is just you not yet meet them.
T: I have beem so many sad case already,i don't really belive in that.
C: You can make your friend become what you wish for every time.
T: I didn't.But They will always put them self first.
C: They have thier own life style,o.k?
T: No,I also have my own life,but when ever they need help from me,i will think for them first.
C: Yes, but you r not them,may be that moment u need help,they got other thing to be done,leh.
T: They should let me know instead of not answering all my call.
C: Yes,you r correct.But may be they got their problem that need to do n can't answer yr call.
T: Then why they need phone for.
C: Sometime friend is always beside u,or when u need them,they will not always there.
T: Then what is friends for?all friend just know to take avantage form u only,lah.
C: Yes,but i don't think that's not good for me.
T: Then u be the stupid to do all for that.
C: No,i am happy because i feel that i still have some use to them.
T: That's why u always use by yr friends,lo.
C: I don't think that is a problem to me.
T: Don't u feel that is not fair to you?
C: No,i just did what i am happy for.
T: But end up they just always didn't pay back any thing to u.
C: Why i need them pay back?The moment i offer help,i will not hope for pay back.
T: Yes,but when u need help,they didn't turn up.
C: When that moment if they give help,i will be very happy.But they done,it means i need to settle by myself what.Why always need to depent on them?
T: That's why i said they are all selfish.
C: It depent on how u accept it.May be is the way you choose friends is not correct.
T: Then you means you very good in choosing friend,right?
C: No, i just feel that i am lucky to have all my friends.
T: Your friends also using you only what.
C: We are using each other.
T: But they using you more.
C: They did what they want and i did what i can and i happy for that.
T: Why u can do all those thing,ha?
C: That's me.